"Clueless" Mom to be Chapter 1

So I thought this would be a fun way to journal this amazing life changing experience!  To start things off M and I would have never been that couple that would have "officially" decided to try to have children.  We are always on the go and so scared to change our ways.  Well, God had other plans! If you ask any of my best friends they will tell you this is exactly the way I wanted to get pregnant aka by a "SURPRISE." 

Day 1

7-12-10: 

I thought I might have been late, but not really sure because the monthly process was always off.  I bought a box of tests at Walgreens on my walk home to the metro. I had no symptoms and really did not think I was pregnant.  I almost took the test in "On the Run" bathroom, but did not because it was soooo nasty!  Thank goodness I didn't because I don't know if I would have made it home.  I ran upstairs opened the test and it was a digital one (fancy).  I did my thing on the stick and an hour glass popped up.  It was taking to long so I sat it down and came back to it a couple of minutes later "pregnant."  I yelled OMG and M ran up the stairs immediately started asking if I was serious!  Once he saw it he brought me water to drink so I could take another test.  After that he immediately wanted to go tell his family.  I on the other hand was on the couch in shock and crying about all the needles I would have to face. HAHA  When your husband is jumping up and down so excited you get over that real quick.  We then called my family and told his family by using a curtain story.  Everyone was soooo excited and his parents took us to dinner. 

Day 2:

I CAN'T FOCUS at WORK!!!!!!  The only thing I wanted to do was get on the Internet and figure out what I was supposed to do.  I learned real quick that I knew even less than I thought about babies and pregnancy.  I thought when you took a pregnancy test that you were then 1 week pregnant. WRONG?!?! lol

Day 3:

Insurance/Short Term Disability breakdown

Day 4:

Getting so excited, trusting God, and still feeling good.

2 weeks later

7-30-10:

 MORNING (on and off all day) SICKNESS has begun, but hey I have finally lost those last 5 lbs.  Who knew that getting pregnant would get me there.

8-6-10

First doctor appointment and now everybody knows! YAY!

Recap of first visit:

I have never been so scared in my entire life.  M was being supportive, but had know idea how terrified I was until right before we left the house when I started bawling.  I was so scared of the baby not being okay, the unknown, and the BLOOD TESTS!!! I have only had my blood drawn one time in my life and I had 5 people holding me still.  If you don't believe that story ask my dad.  I had so many people praying for our family.  Once in the office I immediately felt the power of prayer.  I was very thankful that I already knew my OBGYN from previous appointments.  M seemed to like her as well.  The hospital is literally 5 minutes from our house.  The appointment went well and then they needed blood.  I had already planned out how I was going to handle it.  My entire body was shaking like crazy.   The girl was super sweet and once she realized how scared I was she said let's just do this quick and I will worry with the paperwork later.  It really did not hurt and I felt so brave after it was over.  The doctor had not planned on doing and ultrasound today, but M and I wanted one.  I am a very visual person and needed to see our baby and that heart beat.  They scheduled it for that afternoon.  We get into the waiting room and they call me back.  The lady handed me two gowns to change into.  She said take off you underwear and pants.  I was immediately confused. "Why in the world did I need my pants off?  I only knew of one kind of ultrasound and it did not involve my pants being off!"  :o)  Before I did that I stuck my head back out and asked.  She asked, "How far along are you?" and then after my response said "oh that's why."  She still did NOT answer my question.  M and I go back to the dark room and the lady did the belly thing.  M immediately spotted the baby.  I could not look until she said the baby was ok.  Next comes the answer to my previous question:  "Okay please insert this until I say stop. WHAT?!?!"  Nobody had warned me about this.  The lady then explained it, so I went along and got to see our baby's sweet heartbeat. 

This is an incredible experience and I feel so blessed!  Look forward to many more chapters of this book.  I hope it will give confidence to other mom's to be one day.  I am one clueless future mom who never really knew if I was meant to be a mom.  I am sitting back enjoying this crazy ride and thankful for each day.